I Dunno if it was wat she said. Or its juz me. But i guess i am slowly slipping into the abyss of depression. This wave of darkness seems to envelope me, swallowing me. I feel like i am choking.

Maybe its juz that its all my1 sided affair... I am not meant for u and vice versa.. haiz wtf... wateva is wrong wif me man.

Seriously i dunno why i haf nv felt so dejected b4. its not as if i ask her if she wants to b my gf or sth.. i nv ask that sort of thing. Maybe is juz that she spelt it out so clearly its impossible between us, or mayb is the way she can see thru wat sort of person i am, that made her so ?? abt. me.

But today i think its all the feelings and heavy heart bringing me done... i feel sick... in a long time.. headache to b exact. as usual i din wanna take medicine... i cure it with a pinch of salt. as in i drank a salt mixture... and viola... cured... i think i read somewhere that headaches as in normal headaches are caused by the ionic imbalance in the body. u juz have to take some salt to revert it to its normal ionic balance. as in isotonic drinks.. but i dun haf so i concocted sth myself.

I guess i gotta slp soon... -HH