The ultimate measure of a man

is not where he stands in

moments of comfort

but where he stands

at times of challenge.

wow amazing quote man haha. haha. so where do we all stand. Haiz. Been thinking a lot of things lately. I guess we must reall stand up in times of challenge.

Haiz. heard from my fren that she thinks i change a lot recently. Yup maybe, I dunno if its for the better or for the worse. But I suddenly juz feel like doing wat i wanted to do for a very long time.

Cos for a very long time.... my childhood days i got no money so i cannot pursue anything i liked. I think u can call me a mummy's boy cos i also stick to my mum. Wat else can i do man. haha...

Even Pri sch rite i practically haf got no pocket money. Still rmb the sad thing at my pri sch a meal of egg with rice costs a whooping 70 cents. ok now u say it wouldn't cost much rite... tell that to the kid that only have 50 cents for pocket money to eat sth that's 20 cents more. (oh btw the kid is me. haha) And that's easily the cheapest thing available that's filling. Not considering that there are crackers and potato chips that cost abt 20cents each, but they dun even fill an inch in my stomach.

So i gotta save 2 days money to eat the next day.

Crazy rite. but i always enjoy eating it so much. I think when things dun come easily its valuable.

Sec sch conditions aren't so much better. this time i got $1 yeah 50% increment. haha. Lucikly a bowl of noodles cost $1.However, I always not full 1. I cannot add anything or eat rice. Haha. When u see ur frenz adding extra meat u can only stare wided eye. I wanna how many times i had stared at my frenz piece of meat haha.

Now come to the part of unable to stay back... haha cos i will haf no lunch... woohoo hungry till evening... understand why i dun ever stay back in sch my frenz.. haha...

Then CCA rite i cannot join anything that needs tobuy equipment and stuff... now get why i always delay paying all the funds and thing. And i nv join a sports related CCA. I actually liked running but i am not fast enough haha.. Too bad too sad.

Wat's the point its all over now. Can i go back to change watever that cannot be undone? The Answer is very clear: NO!

My JC days were a whole lot better. But ever since my father lost his job. My days were back to square 1 again. But this time i am determined to change it all I am gonna depend on myself... I make the difference and I call the shots in my own life.

Erm so is that a different me. I dunno haha but deep down inside its still the same me. Its just that some of the emotions is hidden so deep that no sunlight can reach. Some are reappearing the rest are just down there some have become scars, the rest are still floating yet to be discovered.

What would you say my frenz?